The Valley

Welcome back friends! I am so glad you are here! For a disclaimer, this blog is going to be a bit uncomfortable. This season of my life has been challenging and full of scary things, but God never promised an easy life. So I would encourage you to grab some popcorn or your favorite food/drink and let's get into it!

This season of life has been difficult to say the least. I have been experiencing so many nightmares and waking up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat. While this is true, I have never felt so strong in my faith and in my reliance on Jesus. I am going to be sharing some dreams I have had and just what I feel like the Lord is revealing to me in the dreams I am having.

Dream #1: This dream was about me in a dark place with dark figures. All I had was a sword which was lit up. I was fighting and fighting and I got so tired. I felt surrounded and all I could do was yell to God for help. This huge dude (who is Jesus) made all that was fighting me look so tiny. I had all my church friends with swords ready to fight behind him ready to fight but the dark figures ran away. I woke up not knowing what just happened. I feel like God was trying to tell me, "yes this season is going to be hard and exhausting but I am bigger. I have given you a community to help fight alongside you. You are not alone in this. Keep the faith." That encouraged me a lot and so thankful God was revealing that to me that I am not alone when I go through hard seasons of life. It gave me comfort and protection.

Dream #2: Things start to elevate. I was on the streets talking to this guy and he goes, "I am an atheist, why do you believe in Jesus?" I said, "Because he saved my life from horrible things I put myself in. Because of His love and mercy He has shown me." He says, "no why do you have faith in Jesus?" I looked at him and I said, " The reason why I have faith in Jesus is because of his sacrifice on the cross and that he saved me from eternal punishment." He looked at me and walked away. I started talking to another guy about my faith and he starts laughing at me and yelling at me. The guy I talked to first stepped in and said, "Respect her faith." The guy walked away and didn't come back. I kid you not I went to Walmart that evening and the guy I had a dream about was the cashier. I was like I don't even know this guy, what in the world. I didn't talk to the guy since I was in the self checkout, but it was so odd. I told JP too about it and he thought it was a little weird too.

Dream #3: I was in a gym and a young girl was preaching about Jesus in a school. These two girls with pink and aqua hair start yelling and making fun of her and I felt so bad. I walked over to the girls and I say, "I am so sorry you feel the need to yell and say hurtful things about Jesus. What happened?" They both go, "The church we went to the people were so mean to us and treated us like we were less than." I say, "I am so sorry that happened to you but Jesus doesn't hurt people he saves people. He loves you. People shouldn't dictate your faith. I will be praying for you." They looked at me like I just saved their life. They immediately stopped yelling and shouting but instead listened to what was being taught which I had no idea. THAT SAME MORNING! I went to Buttered Biscuit with my family and I kid you not the two girls who were in my dream were there. I told my dad but again didn't say anything to them. I was so weirded out. At this point, I didn't want to sleep I was like I am so over these dreams.

Dream #4: I was in a house talking about Jesus to people and all of a sudden I hear a lady go, "Red coat guy is here to get us." I told them, "Come on we have to go." I was the only one who escaped because my dad held them off but died. Everyone I told Jesus to became red coat people. So I went into another house and the same thing happened I only had 3 people follow me but the rest turned into red coat people. I went into a house under water talking about Jesus to people and the red coat guy found me and almost caught me but an angelic being put me in a shell and took me out of the water and placed me in another house. I once again started talking about Jesus but then all the people who were dead came back and the people were so distracted with it and I kept telling them, " It's a trap, don't fall into it." The red coat guy found me but I escaped with my mom in a car. My mom said, " we forgot your dad we have to go back." I said, "dad died protecting me it's not real." She was so persistent so I let her go back and had no idea what happened to her because I drove off. I woke up drenched in sweat. I never felt so full of stress in my life after I wake up from my sleep. My dad said it could be one of two things, number 1 being the mark of the beast and people were afraid to lose their lives, so they became red coat people. Number 2 it could be I was experiencing what people in communist countries deal with. They have underground churches and if they get caught, they either die or convert back to their religion. Makes me wonder if that's what the world is going to look like in the future and it was a warning.

Dream #5: This dream shattered me in pieces. I was with my sister and we were driving in a white car. There was a police car that followed us and put his lights on. We pulled over but the car kept driving. We put it in park and got out to see where it went. As we were walking, we saw my recent dead uncle. He looked as though he has sorrow on him. I hugged him and said hello. We then watched family feud and I asked him, "What's death like?" He goes, "It happened so fast." My living aunt and I were walking towards a garden and my other aunt and my grandma were there. I say, "Wow, if creation on earth looks so beautiful, imagine what Heaven looks like." Something along those lines anyways. My uncle goes, "I never got in." I just looked at him and I woke up shaking and sweating but God told me to go back to sleep. I went back to sleep and I prayed in my sleep and asked for deliverance. My uncle told me he needed to tell my aunt and Travis and Marli, my cousins. Then angels came and took him away from me. Even though I wasn't close to my uncle, my dad called me and I woke up sobbing. I felt the heavy sorrow and the guilt that he had and it really took a toll on me spiritually. I am still trying to recover from that one. I talked to my dad and he said, "It sounds like Luke 16 with the rich man and the chasm." He said, "God has given you a gift, he speaks to you through dreams. They can be so intense but it is a gift and you should thank God. We can't focus on the one but let that be an eye opener that eternity isn't a game. We have to get rid of American christianity, it's not the feel good and all for the aesthetic. It's either you commit to Jesus or you don't." He goes, " I know how to get all these horrible dreams to stop it's one choice, you stop following Jesus." I looked at him and laughed and said, "Well that's not going to happen." He said, "Then endure it and thank God through it because God is bigger than your dreams." He goes, "Thank you for sharing these dreams you have with me because life isn't about us it's about how many people can we put on the life boat. What good is it if we just keep what we learn inside? We have to try and plant seeds and save as many people as we can." I am so thankful for the conversations me and my dad have on drives at night. He really helps me put in perspective yes these dreams are scary but what is God trying to tell you? God is love yes but God is also just. God wants us to choose Him daily with our thoughts, our words, our actions, everything. We can't pick and choose when to allow God in. God gives us a choice everyday or every second because we aren't promised anything. What are you going to do with that? Are you going to waste the time you are given or use it to glorify God's kingdom? This dream really opened my eyes and it honestly motivated me to draw even closer to Him. It helped me understand okay yesterday I loved God, tomorrow I am going to fall in love with God all over again and for the rest of my life.

That was so intense. I feel stressed just writing that but, God is my protector Psalm 121. God is my comforter, my teacher, my father, my friend, and above all my King. Sometimes I feel like yes we understand seeing God as our father and friend but what about our King? God has all authority. A lot of the time it's the," I fear the punishment.Oh I did something wrong, I am going to get a spanking." Instead of fearing the punishment, fear the punisher. God's love language is obedience. We must obey God and His truth. Praise be to God he gave us Jesus who saves us from eternal punishment but that's not a get out of jail free card. We have to want a relationship with Jesus. Even those who claim to know Jesus are cast out. We must know who He is and not of Him! Seek Him, understand His truth, love others, and forgive others. It's all overwhelming I know. We have to live life in total submission to God. Are you willing? Jesus is willing. Anyways, I hope you have a wonderful afternoon! BAHAHA me goes from such intense things to, "have a great day." I am hilarious! I love you all! I am praying for you! <3