Stuck in Quicksand

Hi friends! It's been a while again since I last posted. College classes have been so intense this semester that I hardly have time to really do anything for myself. I just want you to know that no matter how stressed or anxious you get to just breathe and take those feelings to God. Let Him take those thoughts and turn them into motivation to keep going. I love you and you are such a huge blessing to so many people around you! Let's begin!

Over the course of the semester, I've experienced anxiety attacks, health issues, injuries, burn out, pretty much what every college student goes through I feel like. I feel like over the course of the semester I really haven't figured out what I really want to do. I feel like it's so much to figure out what you want to do with your life when you're still trying to find who you are. I'm the type of person that likes to have everything figured out but that's not always the case. This season of my life has been a season of patience and adaptability.

The beginning of the year I was so pumped to have my life back on track and to thank God for all that He has restored to me. The ability to enjoy campus life, make new friends, play tennis, and to enjoy learning. As the semester went a long, I experienced a lot of burnout in my faith, tennis, and school. I decided to just focus on the social part of college. I felt God calling me back and decided to spend time with Him and really find myself again. Days pass on and the next thing you know I'm sitting on the bench because of an irritated nerve in my shoulder. I feel like all the hard work I put in was just being thrown in the trash. On top of that, I have just felt unsure of what God is calling me to do.

If you have felt like me, you may feel like you're stuck in quick sand. You don't know what your next move should be and if you take the wrong step, you will sink all the way down to the bottom. If you don't move, the sand will just eventually suffocate you. How do we get rid of this feeling? How do we know what move to make next? Only God can direct your steps. We must go to Him and seek His kingdom. This feeling will subside whenever we stop dwelling on it and understand God will reveal our purpose at the right moment. Why are we rushing God's timing? Are we in that much of a hurry to know everything? I know for me, this is God allowing me to slow down and to regain the joy I have for tennis, for school, for our personal relationship. God isn't punishing us rather helping us to take time and focus on Him and ourselves. I feel like the injury was a blessing because it helped me to really enjoy myself and to enjoy growing with my friends. It also helped me to find that spark for tennis again.

If you are in that quicksand, don't give up instead embrace it. Find a positive and draw closer to God. Embrace it and slow down. Don't be in a rush live in the present not in the future. Don't think about what you're going to lose but instead find ways to get it back! You are amazing and God has so many amazing things planned for your life. Let God reveal those things on His time, not on ours. Let Him establish your steps, let Him be in control.

I love you, you will figure it out I promise! Don't get discouraged but keep chugging along. Keep your head up! Spend time with yourself, but most importantly God. He loves you, cares for you, and is your provider. He will not let you fall. Keep striving to be who God made you to be. Keep being patient. God sees you and hears you. He will give you what you need! I am here for you always and am proud of you! You are so loved dear friend! <3